F.E.E.L.I.N.G

Dear Blog ,
Really cant afford this kind of feeling..really cant stand of it..Hate for being in this kind of feeling..Hate for being in this kind of situation and condition.. Why me..why me..that's the question that can never be answer by anyone..

Why I always lost what I really need.. what I really love.. what I really want..

I always got what I dont really need, Im not in love with and what I dont really want..but everyone and everything keep remind me how lucky I am..

Do you all know what "L.U.C.K.Y" means?? Do you really know what "H.A.P.P.Y" really means?? Not that Im not grateful for all I have and done until now..Not that I lie to everybody by saying if you are happy that I will be more happy..no it is true..but this is different kind of hapiness what I talk about..deep down inside my heart I cant be trully happy..my happiness is only on surface..

Last thing I can say that my little bit of hapiness that I feel now and what make me survive until now is by seeing all people I care and love are H.A.P.P.Y

have a blissful day....